Waiting in vain for his LOVE
 
last night i was with my crush ARJAY AVIANTE at SM Dasma.. i bought a pair of sandals and a blue bag. i asked him if we could watch SPIDERMAN2 but his money wasnt enough so i payed for him. we watched MEAN GIRLS instead coz its only at 8:30pm unlike the other one which is 9:30pm.  the movie was great! i learned a lot of things on how to live simply, how to dress up simply, how to communicate with strangers. of course i know you felt the coldness last night! and the fact that were inside the movie house, its much colder! i was freezing already that i almost jumped  out of the chair!! haay, buti na lang, he held my hand.. but it didnt help! i was still shaking!! lucky for me, may humawak pa rin nang kamay ko.. heheh..
 
the night was almost perfect! but he didnt text me anymore that night.. umm, siguro twice lang.. and kahit ngayon, twice lang din siya nag text.. 
 
siyempre masakit sa kin yun na hindi man lang siya nagpaparamdam diba??  i think i love him.. but the question is DO HE FEELS THE WAY THAT I DO?  i did made some moves to be close to him(same as what i did to alex) but this is different.. im his classmate! .. .. .. .. i know sooner or later, we will often go with each other on a date like this.. but it will only hurt me if i wouldnt know what he feels about me..
 
yah, im still hoping and i will wait! i will! the first time i saw his eyes and smile, i know that someday , we will be close friends..
 
i love him..
 
yah i do..
 
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but what about mark??
 
 
do i have to take the risk forcing my self to be in love with someone i dont even love just for once? but do i have to wait for a guy which im not sure if he likes me.. but goes with me evry night.... what do you think?
 
~out~



lenny at 12:28 AM | Comments

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